CONTENT
- Mindfulness Like the Pilings of a Dam
- The Battle Within
- All Things Are Unworthy of Attachment
- Simply Stop Right Here
Mindfulness Like the
Pilings of a Dam
November 6, 1970
Discussing the practice is more useful than
discussing anything else because it gives rise to insight. If we
follow the practice step by step we can read ourselves,
continually deciphering things within us. As you read yourself
through probing and investigating the harm and suffering caused by
defilement, craving, and attachment, there will be times when you
come to true knowledge, enabling you to grow dispassionate and let
go. The mind will then immediately grow still, with none of the
mental concoctions that used to have the run of the place through
your lack of self-investigation.
The principles of self-investigation are our
most important tools. We have to make a concerted effort to master
them at all times, with special emphasis on using mindfulness to
focus on the mind and bring it to centered concentration. If we
don't focus on keeping the mind centered or neutral as its basic
stance, it will wander off in various ways in pursuit of
preoccupations or sensory contacts, giving rise to turmoil and
restlessness. But when we practice restraint over the sensory
doors by maintaining continuous mindfulness in the heart, it's
like driving in the pilings for a dam. If you've ever seen the
pilings for a dam, you'll know that they're driven deep, deep into
the ground so that they're absolutely firm and immovable. But if
you drive them into mud, they're easily swayed by the slightest
contact. This should give us an idea of how firm our mindfulness
should be in supervising the mind to make it stable, able to
withstand sensory contact without liking or disliking its objects.
The firmness of your mindfulness is something
you have to maintain continuously in your every activity, with
every in-and-out breath. The mind will stop being scattered in
search for preoccupations. If you don't manage this, then the mind
will get stirred up whenever there's sensory contact, like a
rudderless ship going wherever the wind and waves will take it.
This is why you need mindfulness to guard the mind at every
moment. If you can make mindfulness constant, in every activity,
the mind will be continuously neutral, ready to probe and
investigate for insight.
As a first step in driving in the pilings for
our dam — in other words, in making mindfulness firm — we have to
focus on neutrality as our basic stance. There's nothing you have
to think about. Simply make the mind solid in its neutrality. If
you can do this continuously, that's when you'll have a true
standard for your investigation, because the mind will have
gathered into concentration. But this concentration is something
you have to watch over carefully to make sure it's not just
oblivious indifference. Make the mind firmly established and
centered so that it doesn't get absentminded or distracted as you
sit in meditation. Sit straight, maintain steady mindfulness, and
there's nothing else you have to do. Keep the mind firm and
neutral, not thinking of anything at all. Make sure this stability
stays continuous. When anything pops up, no matter how, keep the
mind neutral. For example, if there's a feeling of pleasure or
pain, don't focus on the feeling. Simply focus on the stability of
the mind — and there will be a sense of neutrality in that
stability.
If you're careful not to let the mind get
absentminded or distracted, its concentration will become
continuous. For example, if you're going to sit for an hour of
meditation, focus on centering the mind like this for the first
half hour and then make sure it doesn't wander off anywhere until
the hour is up. If you change positions, it's simply an outer
change in the body, while the mind is still firmly centered and
neutral each moment you're standing, sitting, lying down, or
whatever.
Mindfulness is the key factor in all of this,
keeping the mind from concocting thoughts or labeling things.
Everything has to stop. Keep this foundation snug and stable
with every in-and-out breath. Then you can relax your focus on the
breath while keeping the mind in the same state of neutrality.
Relax your heavy focus so that it feels just right with the
breath. The mind will be able to stay in this state for the entire
hour, free from any thoughts that might wander off the path. Then
keep an eye out to see that no matter what you do or say, the mind
stays solidly in its normal state of inward knowing.
If the mind is stable within itself, you're
protected on all sides. When sensory contacts come, you stay
focused on being aware of your mental stability. Even if there are
any momentary slips in your mindfulness, you get right back to the
stability of the mind. Other than that, there's nothing you have
to do. The mind will let go without your having to do anything
else. The way you used to like this, hate that, turn left here,
turn right there, won't be able to happen. The mind will stay
neutral, equanimous, just right. If mindfulness lapses, you get
right back to your focus, recognizing when the mind is centered
and neutral toward its objects and then keeping it that way.
The pilings for the dam of mindfulness have to
be driven in so that they're solid and secure with your every
activity. Keep working at this no matter what you're doing. If you
can train the mind so that stability is its basic stance, it won't
get into mischief. It won't cause you any trouble. It won't
concoct thoughts. It will be quiet. Once it's quiet and centered,
it'll grow more refined and probe in to penetrate within itself,
to know its own state of concentration from within.
As for sensory contacts, those are things
outside — appearing only to disappear — so it's not interested.
This can make cravings disband. Even when we change positions as
pains arise in the body, the mind in that moment is stable,
focused not on the pains but on its own stability. When you change
positions, there will be physical and mental reactions as the
circulation improves and pleasant feelings arise in place of the
pains, but the mind won't get snagged on either the pleasure or
the pain. It will simply stay stable: centered and firm in its
neutrality. This stability can easily help you abandon the
cravings that lie latent in connection with all feelings. But if
you don't keep the mind centered in advance like this, craving
will create issues, provoking the mind into a turmoil, wanting to
change things so as to get this or that kind of happiness.
If we practice in this way repeatedly,
hammering at this point over and over again, it's like driving
pilings into the ground. The deeper we can drive them, the more
immovable they'll be. That's when you'll be able to withstand
sensory contacts. Otherwise, the mind will start boiling over with
its thought concoctions in pursuit of sights, sounds, smells,
tastes, and tactile sensations. Sometimes it keeps concocting the
same old senseless issues over and over again. This is because the
pilings of mindfulness aren't yet firmly in place. The way we've
been stumbling through life is due to the fact that we haven't
really practiced to the point where mindfulness is continuous
enough to make the mind firmly centered and neutral. So we have to
make our dam of mindfulness solid and secure.
This centeredness of mind is something we
should develop with every activity, with every in-and-out breath.
This way we'll be able to see through our illusions, all the way
into the truths of inconstancy and not-self. Otherwise, the mind
will go straying off here and there like a mischievous monkey —
yet even monkeys can be caught and trained to perform tricks. In
the same way, the mind is something that can be trained, but if
you don't tie it to the post of mindfulness and give it a taste of
the stick, it'll be very hard to tame.
When training the mind, you shouldn't force it
too much, nor can you simply let it go its habitual ways. You have
to test yourself to see what gets results. If you don't get your
mindfulness focused, it'll quickly go running out after
preoccupations or easily waver under the impact of its objects.
When people let their minds simply drift along with the flow of
things, it's because they haven't established mindfulness as a
solid stance. When this is the case, they can't stop. They can't
grow still. They can't be free. This is why we have to start out
by driving in the pilings for our dam so that they're good and
solid, keeping the mind stable and centered whether we're sitting,
standing, walking, or lying down. This stability will then be able
to withstand everything. Your mindfulness will stay with its
foundation, just like a monkey tied to a post: It can't run off or
get into mischief. It can only circle the post to which its leash
is tied.
Keep training the mind until it's tame enough
to settle down and investigate things, for if it's still scattered
about, it's of no use at all. You have to train it until it's
familiar with what inner stability is like, for your own
instability and lack of commitment in training it is what allows
it to get all entangled with thought-concoctions, with things that
arise and then pass away. You have to get it to stop. Why is it so
mischievous? Why is it so scattered? Why does it keep wandering
off? Get in under control! Get it to stop, to settle down and grow
centered!
At this stage you all have practiced enough to
gain at least a taste of centered concentration. The next step is
to use mindfulness to maintain it in your every activity, so that
even if there are any distractions, they last only for a moment
and don't turn into long issues. Keep driving in the pilings until
they're solid every time there's an impact from external objects,
or so that the mental concoctions that go straying out from within
are all brought to stillness in every way.
This training isn't really all that hard. The
important point is that, whichever of the many meditation subjects
you choose, you stay mindful and aware of the mind state that's
centered and neutral. If, when the mind goes straying out after
objects, you keep bringing it back to its centeredness over and
over again, the mind will eventually be able to stay firmly in its
stance. In other words, its mindfulness will become constant,
ready to probe and investigate, because when the mind really
settles down, it gains the power to read the facts within itself
clearly. If it's not centered, it can jumble everything up to
fool you, switching from this issue to that, from this role to
that; but if it's centered, it can disband everything — all
defilements, cravings, and attachments — on every side.
So what this practice comes down to is how much
effort and persistence you put into getting the mind firmly
centered. Once it's firm, then when there arise all the sufferings
and defilements that would otherwise get it soiled and worked up,
it can withstand them just as the pilings of a dam can withstand
windstorms without budging. You have to be clearly aware of this
state of mind so that you won't go out liking this or hating that.
This state will then become your point of departure for probing
and investigating so as to gain the insight that sees clearly all
the way through — but you have to make sure that this centeredness
is continuous. Then you won't have to think about anything. Simply
look right in, deeply and subtly.
The important point is that you get rid of
absentmindedness and distractions. This in itself gets rid of a
lot of delusion and ignorance, and leaves no opening for craving
to create any issues that will stir up the mind and set it
wandering. This is because we've established our stance in
advance. Even if we lose our normal balance a little bit, we get
right back to focusing on the stability of our concentration. If
we keep at this over and over again, the stability of the mind
with its continuous mindfulness will enable us to probe into the
truths of inconstancy, stress, and not-self.
In the beginning, though, you don't have to do
any probing. It's better simply to focus on the stability of your
stance, for if you start probing when the mind isn't really
centered and stable, you'll end up scattered. So focus on making
centeredness the basic level of the mind and then start probing in
deeper and deeper. This will lead to insights that grow more and
more telling and profound, bringing the mind to a state of freedom
within itself, or to a state where it is no longer hassled by
defilement.
This in itself will bring about true mastery
over the sense doors. At first, when we started out, we weren't
able to exercise any real restraint over the eyes and ears, but
once the mind becomes firmly centered, then the eyes, ears, nose,
tongue, and body are automatically brought under control. If
there's no mindfulness and concentration, you can't keep your eyes
under control, because the mind will want to use them to look and
to see, it will want to use the ears to listen to all kinds of
things. So instead of exercising restraint outside, at the senses,
we exercise it inside, right at the mind, making the mind firmly
centered and neutral at all times. Regardless of whether you're
talking or whatever, the mind's focus stays in place. Once you can
do this, you'll regard the objects of the senses as meaningless.
You won't have to take issue with things, thinking, "This is good,
I like it. This is bad, I don't like it. This is pretty; that's
ugly." The same holds true with the sounds you hear. You won't
take issue with them. You focus instead on the neutral, uninvolved
centeredness of the mind. This is the basic foundation for
neutrality.
When you can do this, everything becomes
neutral. When the eye sees a form, it's neutral. When the ear
hears a sound, it's neutral — the mind is neutral, the sound is
neutral, everything is all neutral — because we've closed
five of the six sense doors and then settled ourselves in
neutrality right at the mind. This takes care of everything.
Whatever the eye may see, the ear may hear, the nose may smell,
the tongue may taste, or the body may touch, the mind doesn't take
issue with anything at all. It stays centered, neutral, and
impartial. Take just this much and give it a try.
For the next seven days I want you to make a
special point of focusing mindfulness right at the mind, for this
is the end of the rainy season, the period when the lotus and
water lily bloom after the end of the Rains Retreat. In the
Buddha's time he would have the senior monks train the new monks
throughout the Rains Retreat and then meet with him when the
lotuses bloom. I've mentioned this before and I want to mention it
again as a way of encouraging you to develop a stable foundation
for the mind. If its stability is continuous, then it too will
have to bloom — to bloom because it's not burned, disturbed, or
provoked by the defilements. So make a special effort during the
next seven days to see how you can manage to observe and
investigate the centered, neutral state of mind continuously at
all times. Of course, if you fall asleep, you fall asleep; but
even then, when you lie down to sleep, try to observe how you can
keep the mind centered and neutral at all times until you doze
off. When you wake up, the movements of the mind will still remain
in that centered, neutral state. Give it a try, so that your mind
will be able to grow calm and peaceful, disbanding its
defilements, cravings, sufferings — everything. Then notice to see
whether or not it's beginning to bloom.
The sense of refreshment bathing the mind that
comes as part of the peace of mind undisturbed by defilement will
arise of its own accord without your having to do anything aside
from keeping the mind stable and centered. This is your guarantee:
If the mind is really stable in its concentration, the defilements
won't be able to burn it or mess with it. In other words, desire
won't be able to provoke it. When concentration is stable, the
fires of passion, aversion, and delusion won't be able to burn it.
Try to see within yourself how the stability of the mind can
withstand these things, disbanding the stress, putting out the
flames. But you'll have to be earnest in practicing, in making an
effort to keep mindfulness truly continuous. This isn't something
to play at. You can't let yourself be weak, for if you're weak you
won't be able to withstand anything. You'll simply follow the
provocations of defilement and craving.
The practice is a matter of stopping so
that the mind can settle down and stand fast. It's not a matter of
getting into mischief, wandering around to look and listen and get
involved in issues. Try to keep the mind stable; in all your
activities — eating, defecating, whatever — keep the mind centered
within. If you know the state of the mind when it's centered,
immovable, no longer wavering, no longer weak, then the basic
level of the mind will be free and empty — empty of the things
that would burn it, empty because there's no attachment. This is
what enables you to ferret out the stability of the mind at every
moment. It protects you from all sorts of things. All attachment
to self, "me," and "them" is totally wiped out, cut away. The mind
is entirely centered. If you can keep this state stable for the
entire seven days, it will enable you to reach insight all on your
own.
So I ask each of you to see whether or not
you'll be able to make it all the way. Check to see how you're
doing each day. And make sure you check things carefully. Don't
let yourself be lax, sometimes stable, sometimes not. Get so that
the mind is absolutely solid. Don't let yourself be weak. You have
to be genuine in what you do if you want to reach the genuine
extinguishing of suffering and stress. If you're not genuine,
you'll end up letting yourself weaken in the face of the
provocation of wanting this or wanting that, doing this or doing
that, whatever, in the same way that you've been enslaved to
desire, agitated by desire for who knows how long.
Your everyday life is where you can test
yourself — so get back to the battlefield! Take a firm stance in
neutrality. Then the objects that come into contact with the mind
will be neutral; the mind itself will feel centered in neutrality.
There will be nothing to take issue with in terms of good or bad
or whatever. Everything will come to a halt in neutrality —
because things in themselves aren't good or bad or self or
whatever, simply that the mind has gone and made issues out of
them.
So keep looking inward until you see the mind's
neutrality and freedom from "self" continuously, and then you'll
see how the lotus comes to bloom. If it hasn't bloomed yet, that's
because it's withering and dry in the heat of the defilements,
cravings, and attachments smoldering in the mind — things we'll
have to learn to ferret out until we can disband them. If we
don't, the lotus will wither away, its petals falling to the
ground and simply rotting there. So make an effort to keep the
lotus of the mind stable until it blooms. Don't wonder about what
will happen as it blooms. Just keep it stable and make sure it
isn't burned by the defilements.
The Battle Within
November 13, 1970
Today we are meeting as usual.
From what I've seen of your reports on your
special development of mindfulness to read the facts within
yourselves, some of you have really benefited in terms of
penetrating in to read what's going on inside, and you've come out
with correct understanding. So now I'd like to give you a further
piece of advice: In developing mindfulness as a foundation for
probing in to know the truth within yourself, you have to apply a
level of effort and persistence appropriate to the task. This is
because, as we all know, the mind is cloaked in defilements and
mental effluents. If we don't train it and force it, it'll turn
weak and lax. It won't have any strength. You have to make your
persistence more and more constant so that your probing and
investigating will be able to see all the way through to clear
insight.
Clear insight doesn't come from thinking and
speculating. It comes from investigating the mind while it's
gathered into an adequate level of calm and stability. You look
deeply into every aspect of the mind when it's neutral and calm,
free from thought-formations or likes and dislikes for its
preoccupations. You have to work at maintaining this state and at
the same time probe deeply into it, because superficial knowledge
isn't true knowledge. As long as you haven't probed deeply into
the mind, you don't really know anything. The mind is simply calm
on an external level, and your reading of the aspects of the
wanderings of the mind under the influence of defilement, craving,
and attachment isn't yet clear.
So you have to try to peer into yourself until
you reach a level of awareness that can maintain its balance and
let you contemplate your way to sharper understanding. If you
don't contemplate so as to give rise to true knowledge, your
mindfulness will stay just on the surface.
The same principle holds with contemplating the
body. You have to probe deeply into the ways in which the body is
repulsive and composed of physical elements. This is what it means
to read the body so as to understand it, so that you can
explore yourself in all your activities. This way you prevent your
mind from straying off the path and keep it focused on seeing how
it can burn away the defilements as they arise — which is very
delicate work.
Being uncomplacent, not letting yourself get
distracted by outside things, is what will make the practice go
smoothly. It will enable you to examine the germs in the mind in a
skillful way so that you can eliminate the subtlest ones:
ignorance and delusion. Normally, we aren't fully aware of even
the blatant germs, but now that the blatant ones are inactivated
because of the mind's solid focus, we can look into the more
profound areas to catch sight of the deceits of craving and
defilements in whatever way they move into action. We watch them,
know them, and are in a position to abandon them as soon as they
wander off in search of sights, sounds, smells, and delicious
flavors. Whether they're looking for good physical flavors —
bodily pleasure — or good mental flavors, we have to know them
from all sides, even though they're not easy to know because of
all the many desires we feel for physical pleasure. And on top of
that, there are the desires for happiness imbued with pleasurable
feelings, perceptions that carry pleasurable feelings,
thought-formations that carry pleasurable feelings, and
consciousness that carries pleasurable feelings. All of these are
nothing but desires for illusions, for things that deceive us into
getting engrossed and distracted. As a result, it isn't easy for
us to understand much of anything at all.
These are subtle matters and they all come
under the term, "sensual craving" — the desire, lust, and love
that provoke the mind into wandering out in search of the
enjoyment it remembers from past sights, sounds, smells, tastes,
and tactile sensations. Even though these things may have happened
long ago, our perceptions bring them back to deceive us with ideas
of their being good or bad. Once we latch onto them, they make the
mind unsettled and defiled.
So it isn't easy to examine and understand all
the various germs within the mind. The external things we're able
to know and let go of are only the minor players. The important
ones have gathered together to take charge in the mind and won't
budge no matter how you try to chase them out. They're stubborn
and determined to stay in charge. If you take them on when your
mindfulness and discernment aren't equal to the fight, you'll end
up losing your inner calm.
So you have to make sure that you don't push
the practice too much, without at the same time letting it grow
too slack. Find the Middle Way that's just right. While you're
practicing in this way, you'll be able to observe what the mind is
like when it has mindfulness and discernment in charge, and then
you make the effort to maintain that state and keep it
constant. That's when the mind will have the opportunity to stop
and be still, stable and centered for long periods of time until
it's used to being that way.
Now, there are some areas where we have to
force the mind and be strict with it. If we're weak and lax,
there's no way we can succeed, for we've given in to our own wants
for so long already. If we keep giving in to them, it will become
even more of a habit. So you have to use force — the force of your
will and the force of your mindfulness and discernment. Even if
you get to the point where you have to put your life on the line,
you've got to be willing. When the time comes for you really to be
serious, you've got to hold out until you come out winning. If you
don't win, you don't give up. Sometimes you have to make a vow as
a way of forcing yourself to overcome your stubborn desires for
physical pleasure that tempt you and lead you astray.
If you're weak and settle for whatever pleasure
comes in the immediate present, then when desire comes in the
immediate present you fall right for it. If you give in to your
wants often in this way, it'll become habitual, for defilement is
always looking for the chance to tempt you, to incite you. As when
we try to give up an addiction to betel, cigarettes, or meat: It's
hard to do because craving is always tempting us. "Take just a
little," it says. "Just a taste. It doesn't matter." Craving knows
how to fool us, the way a fish is fooled into getting caught on a
hook by the bait surrounding the hook, screwing up its courage
enough to take just a little, and then a little more, and then a
little more until it's sure to get snagged. The demons of
defilement have us surrounded on all sides. Once we fall for their
delicious flavors, we're sure to get snagged on the hook. No
matter how much we struggle and squirm, we can't get free.
You have to realize that gaining victory over
your enemies — the cravings and defilements in the heart — is no
small matter, no casual affair. You can't let yourself be weak or
lax, but you also have to gauge your strength, for you have to
figure out how to apply your efforts at abandoning and destroying
to weaken the defilements and cravings that have had the power of
demons overwhelming the mind for so long. It's not the case that
you have to battle to the brink of death in every area. With some
things — such as giving up addictions — you can mount a full-scale
campaign and come out winning without killing yourself in the
process. But with other things, more subtle and deep, you have to
be more perceptive so as to figure out how to overcome them over
the long haul, digging up their roots so that they gradually
weaken to the point where your mindfulness and discernment can
rise above them. If there are any areas where you're still losing
out, you have to take stock of your sensitivities to figure out
why. Otherwise, you'll keep losing out, for when the defilements
really want something, they trample all over your mindfulness and
discernment in their determination to get what they're after:
"That's what I want. I don't care what anyone says." They really
are that stubborn! So it's no small matter, figuring out how to
bring them under control. It's like running into an enemy or a
wild beast rushing in to devour you. What are you going to do?
When the defilements arise right before your
eyes, you have to be wary. Suppose you're perfectly aware, and all
of a sudden they spring up and confront you: What kind of
mindfulness and discernment are you going to use to disband them,
to realize that, "These are the hordes of Mara, come to burn and
eat me. How am I going to get rid of them?" In other words, how
are you going to find a skillful way of contemplating them so as
to destroy them right then and there?
We have to do this regardless of whether we're
being confronted with physical and mental pain or physical and
mental pleasure. Actually, pleasure is more treacherous than pain
because it's hard to fathom and easy to fall for. As for pain, no
one falls for it because it's so uncomfortable. So how are we
going to contemplate so as to let go of both the pleasure
and the pain? This is the problem we're faced with at every
moment. It's not the case that when we practice we accept only the
pleasure and stop when we run into pain. That's not the case at
all. We have to learn how to read both sides, to see that
the pain is inconstant and stressful, and that the pleasure is
inconstant and stressful, too. We have to penetrate clear through
these things. Otherwise, we'll be deluded by the deceits of the
cravings that want pleasure, whether it's physical pleasure or
whatever. Our every activity — sitting, standing, walking, lying
down — is really for the sake of pleasure, isn't it?
This is why there are so many, many ways in
which we're deluded with pleasure. Whatever we do, we do for the
sake of pleasure without realizing how deeply we've mired
ourselves in suffering and stress. When we contemplate
inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness, we don't get anywhere in
our contemplation because we haven't seen through pleasure. We
still think that it's a good thing. We have to probe into the fact
that there's no real ease to physical or mental pleasure. It's all
stress. When you can see it from this angle, that's when you'll
come to understand inconstancy.
Then once the mind isn't focused on wanting
pleasure all the time, its stresses and pains will lighten. It
will be able to see them as something common and normal, to see
that if you try to change the pains to find ease, there's no ease
to be found. In this way, you won't be overly concerned with
trying to change the pains, for you'll see that there's no
pleasure or ease to the aggregates, that they give nothing but
stress and pain. As in the Buddha's teachings we chant every day:
"Form is stressful, feeling, perception, thought-formations, and
consciousness are all stressful." The problem is that we
haven't investigated into the truth of our own form, feelings,
perceptions, thought-formations, and consciousness. Our
insight isn't yet penetrating because we haven't looked from the
angle of true knowing. And so we get deluded here and lost there
in our search for pleasure, finding nothing but pain and yet
mistaking it for pleasure. This shows that we still haven't opened
our ears and eyes; we still don't know the truth. Once we do know
the truth, though, the mind will be more inclined to grow still
and calm than to go wandering off. The reason it goes wandering
off is because it's looking for pleasure, but once it realizes
there's no real pleasure to be found in that way, it settles down
and grows still.
All the cravings that provoke and unsettle the
mind come down to nothing but the desire for pleasure. So we have
to contemplate so as to see that the aggregates have no pleasure
to offer, that they're stressful by their very nature. They're not
us or ours. Take them apart and have a good look at them, starting
with the body. Analyze the body down to its elements so that the
mind won't keep latching onto it as "me" or "mine." You have to do
this over and over again until you really understand.
It's the same as when we chant the passage for
Recollection while Using the Requisites — food, clothing,
shelter, and medicine — every day. We do this so as to gain real
understanding. If we don't do this every day, we forget and get
deluded into loving and worrying about the body as "my body," "my
self." No matter how much we keep latching onto it over and over
again, it's not easy for us to realize what we're doing, even
though we have the Buddha's teachings available, explaining these
things in every way. Or we may have contemplated to some extent,
but we haven't seen things clearly. We've seen only in a vague and
blurry way and then flitted off oblivious without having probed in
to see all the way through. This is because the mind isn't firmly
centered. It isn't still. It keeps wandering off to find things to
think about and get itself all agitated. This way it can't really
get to know anything at all. All it knows are a few little
perceptions. This is the way it has been for who knows how many
years now. It's as if our vision has been clouded by spots that we
haven't yet removed from our eyes.
Those who aren't interested in exploring, who
don't make an effort to get to the facts, don't wonder about
anything at all. They're free from doubt, all right, but it's
because their doubts have been smothered by delusion. If we start
exploring and contemplating, we'll have to wonder about the things
we don't yet know: "What's this? What does it mean? How should I
deal with it?" These are questions that lead us to explore. If we
don't explore, it's because we don't have any intelligence. Or we
may gain a few little insights, but we let them pass so that we
never explore deeply into the basic principles of the practice.
What little we do know doesn't go anywhere, doesn't
penetrate into the Noble Truths, because our mindfulness and
discernment run out of strength. Our persistence isn't resilient
enough, isn't brave enough. We don't dare look deeply inside
ourselves.
To go by our own estimates of how far is
enough in the practice is to lie to ourselves. It keeps us
from gaining release from suffering and stress. If you happen to
come up with a few insights, don't go bragging about them, or else
you'll end up deceiving yourself in countless ways. Those who
really know, even when they have attained the various
stages of insight, are heedful to keep on exploring. They don't
get stuck on this stage or that. Even when their insights are
correct they don't stop right there and start bragging, for that's
the way of a fool.
Intelligent people, even though they see things
clearly, always keep an eye out for the enemies lying in wait for
them on the deeper, more subtle levels ahead. They have to keep
penetrating further and further in. They have no sense that this
or that level is plenty enough — for how can it be enough? The
defilements are still burning away, so how can you brag? Even
though your knowledge may be true, how can you be complacent when
your mind has yet to establish a foundation for itself?
As you investigate with mindfulness and
discernment, complacency is the major problem. You have to be
uncomplacent in the practice if you want to keep up with the fact
that life is ebbing away, ebbing with every moment. And how should
you live so that you can be said to be uncomplacent? This is an
extremely important question, for if you're not alive to it, then
no matter how many days or months you practice meditation or
restraint of the senses, it's simply a temporary exercise. When
you're done, you get back to your same old turmoil as before.
And watch out for your mouth. You'll have
trouble not bragging, for the defilements will provoke you into
speaking. They want to speak, they want to brag, they won't let
you stay silent.
If you force yourself in the practice without
understanding its true aims, you end up deceiving yourself and go
around telling people, "I practiced in silence for so many days,
so many months." This is deceiving yourself and others as well.
The truth of the matter is that you're still a slave to stupidity,
obeying the many levels of defilement and craving within yourself
without realizing the fact. If someone praises you, you really
prick up your ears, wag your tail and, instead of explaining the
harm of the defilements and craving you were able to find within
yourself, you simply want to brag.
So the practice of the Dhamma isn't something
that you can just muddle your way through. It's something you have
to do with your intelligence fully alert — for when you
contemplate in a circumspect way, you'll see that there's nothing
worth getting engrossed in, that everything — both inside and out
— is nothing but an illusion. It's like being adrift, alone in the
middle of the ocean with no island or shore in sight. Can you
afford just to sit back and relax, to make a temporary effort and
then brag about it? Of course not! As your investigation
penetrates inwardly to ever more subtle levels of the mind, you'll
have to become more and more calm and reserved, in the same way
that people become more and more circumspect as they grow from
children to teenagers and into adults. Your mindfulness and
discernment have to keep growing more and more mature in order to
understand the right and wrong, the true and false, in whatever
arises: That's what will enable you to let go and gain release.
And that's what will make your life in the true practice of the
Dhamma go smoothly. Otherwise, you'll fool yourself into boasting
of how many years you practiced meditation and will eventually
find yourself worse off than before, with defilement flaring up in
a big way. If this is the way you go, you'll end up tumbling head
over heels into fire — for when you raise your head in pride, you
run into the flames already burning within yourself.
To practice means to use the fire of
mindfulness and discernment as a counter-fire to put out the blaze
of the defilements, because the heart and mind are burning
with defilement, and when we use the fire of mindfulness and
discernment to put out the fire of defilement, the mind can cool
down. Do this by being increasingly honest with yourself, without
leaving an opening for defilement and craving to insinuate their
way into control. You have to be alert. Circumspect. Wise to them.
Don't fall for them! If you fall for whatever rationale they come
up with, it means that your mindfulness and discernment are still
weak. They lead you away by the nose, burning you with their fire
right before your very eyes, and yet you're still able to open
your mouth to brag!
So turn around and take stock of everything
within yourself. Take stock of every aspect, because right and
wrong, true and false, are all within you. You can't go finding
them outside. The damaging things people say about you are nothing
compared to the damage caused inside you when defilement burns
you, when your feeling of "me" and "mine" raises its head.
If you don't honestly come to your senses,
there's no way your practice of the Dhamma can gain you release
from the great mass of suffering and stress. You may be able to
gain a little knowledge and let go of a few things, but the roots
of the problem will still lie buried deep down. So you have to dig
them out. You can't relax after little bouts of emptiness and
equanimity. That won't accomplish anything. The defilements and
mental effluents lie deep in the personality, so you have to use
mindfulness and discernment to penetrate deep down to make a
precise and thorough examination. Only then will you get results.
Otherwise, if you stay only on the surface level, you can practice
until your body lies rotting in its coffin but you won't have
changed any of your basic habits.
Those who are scrupulous by nature, who know
how to contemplate their own flaws, will keep on the alert for any
signs of pride within themselves. They'll try to control and
destroy conceit on every side and won't allow it to swell. The
methods we need to use in the practice for examining and
destroying the germs within the mind aren't easy to master. For
those who don't contemplate themselves thoroughly, the practice
may actually only increase their pride, their bragging, their
desire to go teaching others. But if we turn within and discern
the deceits and conceits of self, a profound feeling of
disenchantment and dismay arises, causing us to pity ourselves for
our own stupidity, for the amount to which we've deluded ourselves
all along, and for how much effort we'll still need to put into
the practice.
So however great the pain and anguish, however
many tears bathe your cheeks, persevere! The practice isn't simply
a matter of looking for mental and physical pleasure. "Let tears
bathe my cheeks, but I'll keep on with my striving at the holy
life as long as I live!" That's the way it has to be! Don't quit
at the first small difficulty with the thought, "It's a waste of
time. I'd do better to follow my cravings and defilements." You
can't think like that! You have to take the exact opposite stance:
"When they tempt me to grab this, take a lot of that — I won't!
However fantastic the object may be, I won't take the bait." Make
a firm declaration! This is the only way to get results.
Otherwise, you'll never work yourself free, for the defilements
have all sorts of tricks up their sleeves. If you get wise to one
trick, they simply change to another, and then another.
If we're not observant to see how much we've
been deceived by the defilements in all sorts of ways, we won't
come to know the truth within ourselves. Other people may fool us
now and then, but the defilements fool us all of the time. We fall
for them and follow them hook, line, and sinker. Our trust in the
Lord Buddha is nothing compared to our trust in them. We're
disciples of the demons of craving, letting them lead us ever
deeper into their jungle.
If we don't contemplate to see this for
ourselves, we're lost in that jungle charnel ground where the
demons keep roasting us to make us squirm with desires and every
form of distress. Even though you have come to stay in a place
with few disturbances, these demons still manage to tempt and draw
you away. Just notice how the saliva flows when you come across
anything delicious! So you have to decide to be either a
warrior or a loser. The practice requires that you do battle
with defilements and cravings. Always be on your guard, whatever
the approach they take to seduce and deceive you. Other people
can't come in to lead you away, but these demons of your own
defilements can, because you're willing to trust them, to be their
slave. You have to contemplate yourself carefully so that you're
no longer enslaved to them and can reach total freedom within
yourself. Make an effort to develop your mindfulness and
discernment so as to gain clear insight and then let go until
suffering and stress disband in every way!
All Things Are Unworthy
of Attachment
November 21, 1970
Today's our day to discuss the practice.
It's very beneficial that we have practiced the
Dhamma by contemplating ourselves step by step and have — to some
extent — come to know the truth. This is because each person has
to find the truth within: the truths of stress, its cause, and the
path leading to its disbanding. If we don't know these things, we
fall into the same sufferings as the rest of the world. We may
have come to live in a Dhamma center, yet if we don't know these
truths we don't benefit from staying here. The only way we differ
from living at home is that we're observing the precepts. If we
don't want to be deluded in our practice, these truths are things
we have to know. Otherwise, we get deluded into looking for our
fun in the stresses and sufferings offered by the world.
Our practice is to contemplate until we
understand stress and its cause, in other words, the defilements
that have power and authority in the heart and mind. It's only
because we have this practice that we can disband these
defilements, that we can disband stress every day and at all
times. This is something really marvelous. Those who don't
practice don't have a clue, even though they live enveloped by
defilements and stress. They simply get led around by the nose
into more and more suffering, and yet none of them realize what's
going on. If we don't make contact with the Dhamma, if we don't
practice, we go through birth and death simply to create kamma
with one another and to keep whirling around in suffering and
stress.
We have to contemplate until we really see
stress: That's when we'll become uncomplacent and try to disband
it or to gain release from it. The practice is thus a matter of
struggling to gain victory over stress and suffering with better
and better results each time. Whatever mistakes we make in
whatever way, we have to try not to make them again. And we have
to contemplate the harm and suffering caused by the more subtle
defilements, cravings, and attachments within us. This is why we
have to probe into the deeper, more profound parts of the heart —
for if we stay only on the superficial levels of emptiness in the
mind, we won't gain any profound knowledge at all.
So we train the mind to be mindful and firmly
centered, and to fix its focus on looking within, knowing within.
Don't let it get distracted outside. When it focuses within, it
will come to know the truth: the truth of stress and of the causes
of stress — defilement, craving, and attachment — as they arise.
It will see what they're like and how to probe inward to disband
them
When all is said and done, the practice comes
down to one issue, because it focuses exclusively on one thing:
stress together with its cause. This is the central issue in human
life — even animals are in the same predicament — but our
ignorance deludes us into latching onto all kinds of things. This
is because of our misunderstandings or wrong views. If we gain
Right View, we see things correctly. Whenever we see stress, we
see its truth. When we see the cause of stress, we see its truth.
We both know and see because we've focused on it. If you don't
focus on stress, you won't know it; but as soon as you focus on
it, you will. It's because the mind hasn't focused here that
it wanders out oblivious, chasing after its preoccupations.
When we try to focus it down, it struggles and
resists because it's used to wandering. But if we keep focusing it
again and again, more and more frequently until we get a sense of
how to bring it under control, then the task ultimately becomes
easier because the mind no longer struggles to chase after its
preoccupations as it did before. No matter how much it resists
when we start training it, eventually we're sure to bring it under
our control, getting it to settle down and be still. If it doesn't
settle down, you have to contemplate it. You have to show it that
you mean business. This is because defilement and craving are very
strong. You can't be weak when dealing with them. You have to be
brave, to have a fight-to-the-death attitude, and to keep
sustaining your efforts. If you're concerned only with finding
comfort and pleasure, the day will never come when you'll gain
release. You'll have to continue staying under their power.
Their power envelops everything in our
character, making it very difficult for us to find out the truth
about ourselves. What we do know is just a smattering, and so we
play truant, abandoning the task, and end up seeing that the
practice of the Dhamma isn't really important. Thus we don't
bother to be strict with ourselves, and instead involve ourselves
in all kinds of things, for that's the path the defilements keep
pointing out to us. We grope along weakly, making it harder and
harder to see stress clearly because we keep giving in to the
defilements and taking their bait. When they complain about the
slightest discomfort, we quickly pander to them and take the bait
again. It's because we're so addicted to the bait that we don't
appreciate either the power of craving — as it wanders out after
sights, sounds, smells, tastes, etc. — or the harm it causes in
making us scattered and restless, unable to stay still and
contemplate ourselves. It's always finding things for us to do, to
think about, making ourselves suffer, and yet we remain blind to
the fact.
Now that we've come to practice the Dhamma, we
begin to have a sense of what's going on. For this reason, whoever
practices without being complacent will find that defilement and
stress will have to grow lighter and lighter, step by step. The
areas where we used to be defeated, we now come out victorious.
Where we used to be burned by the defilements, we now have the
mindfulness and discernment to burn them instead. Only when
we stop groping around and really come to our senses will we
realize the benefits of the Dhamma, the importance of the
practice. Then there is no way that we can abandon the practice,
for something inside us keeps forcing us to stay with it. We've
seen that if we don't practice to disband defilement and stress,
the stress of the defilements will keep piling up. This is why we
have to stay with the practice to our last breath.
You have to be firm in not letting yourself be
weak and easily led astray. Those who are mindful and discerning
will naturally act it this way; those who aren't will keep on
following their defilements, ending up back where they were when
they hadn't yet started practicing to gain release from stress.
They may keep on practicing, but it's hard to tell what they're
practicing for — mostly for more stress. This shows that they're
still groping around — and when they grope around in this way,
they start criticizing the practice as useless and bad.
When a person submits readily to defilement and
craving, there's no way she can practice, for if you're going to
practice, there are a lot of things you have to struggle with and
endure. It's like paddling a boat against the stream — you have to
use strength if you want to make any headway. It's not easy to go
against the stream of the defilements, because they are always
ready to pull you down to a lower level. If you aren't mindful and
discerning, if you don't use the Lord Buddha's Dhamma to examine
yourself, your strength will fail you, for if you have only a
little mindfulness and discernment in the face of a lot of
defilements, they'll make you vacillate. And if you're living with
sweet-talking sycophants, you'll go even further off the path,
involved with all sorts of things and oblivious to the practice.
To practice the Dhamma, then, is to go
against the flow, to go upstream against suffering and stress,
because suffering and stress are the main problems. If you don't
really contemplate stress, your practice will go nowhere. Stress
is where you start, and then you try to trace out its root cause.
You have to use your discernment to track down exactly where
stress originates, for stress is a result. Once you see the
result, you have to track down the cause. Those who are mindful
and discerning are never complacent. Whenever stress arises
they're sure to search out its causes so that they can eliminate
them. This sort of investigation can proceed on many levels, from
the coarse to the refined, and requires that you seek advice so
that you don't stumble. Otherwise, you may think you can figure it
all out in your head — which won't work at all!
The basic Dhamma principles that the Lord
Buddha proclaimed for us to use in our contemplation are many, but
there's no need to learn them all. Just focusing on some of the
more important ones, such as the five aggregates or name and form,
will be very useful. But you need to keep making a thorough,
all-round examination, not just an occasional probe, so that a
feeling of dispassion and disengagement arises and loosens the
grip of desire. Use mindfulness to keep constant and close
supervision over the senses, and that mindfulness will come to be
more present than your tendency to drift off elsewhere. Regardless
of what you're doing, saying, or thinking, be on the lookout for
whatever will make you slip, for if you're tenacious in sustaining
mindfulness, that's how all your stresses and sufferings can be
disbanded.
So keep at this. If you fall down 100 times,
get back up 100 times and resume your stance. The reason
mindfulness and discernment are slow to develop is because you're
not really sensitive to yourself. The greater your sensitivity,
the stronger your mindfulness and discernment will become. As the
Lord Buddha said, "Bhavita bahulikata" — which means,
"Develop and maximize" — i.e., make the most of your mindfulness.
The way your practice has developed through
contemplating and supervising the mind throughout your daily life
has already shown its rewards to some extent, so keep stepping up
your efforts. Don't let yourself grow weak or lax. You've finally
got this opportunity: Can you afford to be complacent? Your life
is steadily ebbing away, so you have to compensate by building up
more and more mindfulness and discernment until you become mature
in the Dhamma. Otherwise, your defilements will remain many and
your discernment crude. The older you grow, the more you have to
watch out — for we know what happens to old people everywhere.
So seize the moment to develop the faculties of
conviction, persistence, mindfulness, concentration, and
discernment in a balanced way. Keep contemplating and probing, and
you'll protect yourself from wandering out after the world. No
matter who tempts you to go with them, you can be sure within
yourself that you won't go following them because you no longer
have to go believing anyone else or hoping for the baits of the
world — because the baits of the world are poison. The Dhamma
has to be the refuge and light of your life. Once you have
this degree of conviction in yourself, you can't help but stride
forward without slipping back; but if you waver and wander, unsure
of whether or not to keep practicing the Dhamma, watch out: You're
sure to get pulled over the cliff and into the pit of fire.
If you aren't free within yourself, you get
pulled at from all sides because the world is full of things that
keep pulling at you. But those who have the intelligence not to be
gullible will see the stress and harm of those things distinctly
for themselves. For this reason they're not headed for anything
low; they won't have to keep suffering in the world. They feel
dispassion. They lose their taste for all the various baits and
lures the world has to offer.
The practice of the Dhamma is what allows us to
shake off whatever attractive things used to delude us into
holding on. Realize that it won't be long before we die — we won't
be here much longer! — so even if anyone offers us incredible
wealth, why should we want it? Who could really own it? Who could
really control it?
If you can read yourself in this matter, you
come to a feeling of dispassion. Disenchantment. You lose your
taste for all the lures of the world. You no longer hold them in
esteem. If you make use of them, it's for the sake of the benefits
they give in terms of the Dhamma, but your disenchantment stays
continuous. Even the name and form you've been regarding as "me"
and "mine" have been wearing down and falling apart continually.
As for the defilements, they're still lying in wait to burn you.
So how can you afford to be oblivious? First there's the suffering
and stress of the five aggregates, and on top of that there's the
suffering and stress caused by defilement, craving, and
attachment, stabbing you, slapping you, beating you.
The more you practice and contemplate, the more
you become sensitive to this on deeper and deeper levels. Your
interest in blatant things outside — good and bad people, good and
bad things — gets swept away. You don't have to concern yourself
with them, for you're concerned solely with penetrating yourself
within, destroying your pride and conceit. Outside affairs aren't
important. What's important is how clearly you can see the truth
inside until the brightness appears.
The brightness that comes from seeing the truth
isn't at all like the light we see outside. Once you really know
it, you see that it's indescribable, for it's something entirely
personal. It cleans everything out of the heart and mind in line
with the strength of our mindfulness and discernment. It's what
sweeps and cleans and clears and lets go and disbands things
inside. But if we don't have mindfulness and discernment as our
means of knowing, contemplating, and letting go, then everything
inside is dark on all sides. And not only dark, but also full of
fire whose poisonous fuel keeps burning away. What could be more
terrifying than the fuel burning inside us? Even though it's
invisible, it flares up every time there's sensory contact.
The bombs they drop on people to wipe them out
aren't really all that dangerous, for you can die only once per
lifetime. But the three bombs of passion, aversion, and delusion
keep ripping the heart apart countless times. Normally we don't
realize how serious the damage is, but when we come to practice
the Dhamma we can take stock of the situation, seeing what it's
like when sensory contact comes, at what moments the burning heat
of defilement and craving arises, and why they're all so very
quick.
When you contemplate how to disband suffering
and defilement, you need the proper tools and have to make the
effort without being complacent. The fact that we've come to
practice out here without any involvements or worldly
responsibilities helps speed up the practice. It's extremely
beneficial in helping us to examine our inner diseases in detail
and to disband suffering and stress continually in line with our
mindfulness and discernment. Our burdens grow lighter and we come
to realize how much our practice of the Dhamma is progressing in
the direction of the cessation of suffering.
Those who don't have the time to come and rest
here or to really stop, get carried away with all kinds of
distractions. They may say, "I can practice anywhere," but it's
just words. The fact of the matter is that their practice is to
follow the defilements until their heads are spinning, and yet
they can still boast that they can practice anywhere! Their mouths
aren't in line with their minds, and their minds — burned and
beaten by defilement, craving, and attachment — don't realize
their situation. They're like worms that live in filth and are
happy to stay and die right there in the filth.
People with any mindfulness and discernment
feel disgust at the filth of the defilements in the mind. The more
they practice, the more sensitive they become, the more their
revulsion grows. Before, when our mindfulness and discernment were
still crude, we didn't feel this at all. We were happy to play
around in the filth within ourselves. But now that we've come to
practice, to contemplate from the blatant to the more subtle
levels, we sense more and more how disgusting the filth really is.
There's nothing to it that's worth falling for at all, because
it's all inconstancy, stress, and not-self.
So what's there to want out of life? Those who
are ignorant say that we're born to gain wealth and be
millionaires, but that kind of life is like falling into hell! If
you understand the practice of the Dhamma in the Buddha's
footsteps, you realize that nothing is worth having, nothing is
worth getting involved with, everything has to be let go.
Those who still latch onto the body, feeling,
perceptions, thought-formations, and consciousness as self need to
contemplate until they see that the body is stressful, feelings
are stressful, perceptions are stressful, thought-formations are
stressful, consciousness is stressful — in short, name is
stressful and so is form, or in even plainer terms, the body is
stressful and so is the mind. You have to focus on stress.
Once you see it thoroughly, from the blatant to the subtle levels,
you'll be able to rise above pleasure and pain because you've let
them go. But if you have yet to fully understand stress, you'll
still yearn for pleasure — and the more you yearn, the more you
suffer.
This holds too for the pleasure that comes when
the mind is tranquil. If you let yourself get stuck on it, you're
like a person addicted to a drug: Once there's the desire, you
take the drug and think yourself happy. But as for how much
suffering the repeated desire causes, you don't have the
intelligence to see it. All you see is that if you take the drug
whenever you want, you're okay.
When people can't shake off their addictions,
this is why. They get stuck on the sense of pleasure that comes
when they take the drug. They're ingesting sensuality and they
keep on wanting more, for only when they ingest more will their
hunger subside. But soon it comes back again, so they'll want
still more. They keep on ingesting sensuality, stirring up the
mind, but don't see that there's any harm or suffering involved.
Instead, they say they're happy When the longing gets really
intense, it feels really good to satisfy it. That's what they say.
People who have heavy defilements and crude discernment don't see
that desire and longing are suffering, and so they don't know how
to do away with them. As soon as they take what they want, the
desire goes away. Then it comes back again, so they take some
more. It comes back again and they take still more — over and over
like this, so blind that they don't realize anything at all.
People of intelligence, though, contemplate:
"Why is there desire and why do I have to satisfy it? And when it
comes back, why do I have to keep satisfying it over and over
again?" Once they realize that the desire in and of itself is
what they have to attack, that by disbanding this one thing
they won't feel any disturbance and will never have to suffer from
desire again, that's when they really can gain release from
suffering and stress. But for the most part we don't see
things from this angle because we still take our pleasure in
consuming things. This is why it's hard for us to practice to
abandon desire. All we know is how to feed on the bait, so we
don't dare try giving it up — as when people who are addicted to
meat-eating are afraid to become vegetarians. Why? Because they're
still attached to flavor, still slaves to desire.
If you can't let go of even these blatant
things, how can you ever hope to abandon the damp and fermenting
desires within you that are so much harder to detect? You still
take the most blatant baits. When desire whispers and pleads with
you, there you go — pandering to it as quickly as possible. You
don't notice how much this tires you out, don't realize that this
is the source of the most vicious sufferings that deceive all
living beings into falling under its power. Even though the
Buddha's teachings reveal the easiest way to use our discernment
to contemplate cause and effect in this area, we don't make the
effort to contemplate and instead keep swallowing the bait. We get
our pleasure and that's all we want, going with the flow of
defilement and craving.
Our practice here is to go against the
flow of every sort of desire and wandering of the mind. It means
self-restraint and training in many, many areas: as, for instance,
when sights, sounds, smells, tastes, tactile sensations arise and
deceive us into liking something and then, a moment later, tiring
of it and wanting something else. We get so thoroughly deceived
that we end up running frantically all over the place.
The virulent diseases in the mind are more than
many. If you don't know how to deal with them, you'll remain under
Mara's power. Those who have truly seen stress and suffering will
be willing to put their lives on the line in their effort to work
free, in the same way the Buddha was willing to put his life on
the line in order to gain freedom from suffering and release from
the world. He wasn't out after personal comfort at all. Each
Buddha-to-be has had to undergo suffering in the world for his own
sake and that of others. Each has had to relinquish all of his
vast wealth instead of using it for his comfort. So the practice
is one of struggle and endurance. Whoever struggles and endures
will gain victory — and no other victory can match it. Gaining
control over the defilements is the ultimate victory. Whatever
you contemplate, you can let go: That's the ultimate victory.
So please keep at the effort. You can't let
yourself relax after each little victory. The more you keep being
victorious, the stronger, more daring, and more resilient your
mindfulness and discernment will become in every area, examining
everything regardless of whether it comes in by way of the eyes,
ears, nose, tongue, body, or mind.
The more you examine yourself, the sharper your
mindfulness and discernment will become, understanding how to
disband things and let them go. As soon as there's attachment,
you'll see the suffering and stress — just as when you touch fire,
feel the heat, and immediately let go. This is why the practice of
the Dhamma is of supreme worth. It's not just a game you play
around with — for the defilements have a great deal of power
that's hard to overcome. But if you make the effort to overcome
them, they'll weaken as mindfulness and discernment grow stronger.
This is when you can say that you're making progress in the
Dhamma: when you can disband your own suffering and stress.
So try to go all the way while you still have
the breath to breathe. The Buddha said, "Make an effort to attain
the as-yet-unattained, reach the as-yet-unreached, realize the
as-yet-unrealized." He didn't want us to be weak and vacillating,
always making excuses for ourselves, because now that we've
ordained we've already made an important sacrifice. In the
Buddha's time, no matter where the monks and nuns came from — from
royal, wealthy, or ordinary backgrounds — once they had left their
homes they cut their family ties and entered the Lord Buddha's
lineage without ever returning. To return to the home life, he
said, was to become a person of no worth. His only concern was to
keep pulling people out, pulling them out of suffering and stress.
If we want to escape, we have to follow his example, cutting away
worry and concern for our family and relatives by entering his
lineage. To live and practice under his discipline is truly the
supreme refuge, the supreme way.
Those who follow the principles of the Dhamma-Vinaya
— even though they may have managed only an occasional taste of
its peace without yet reaching the paths and their fruitions —
pledge their lives to the Buddha, Dhamma, and Sangha. They realize
that nothing else they can reach will lead to freedom from
suffering, but if they reach this one refuge, they'll gain total
release. Those whose mindfulness and discernment are deep,
far-seeing, and meticulous will cross over to the further shore.
They've lived long enough on this shore and have had all the
suffering they can bear. They've circled around in birth and death
countless times. So now they realize that they have to go to the
further shore and so they make a relentless effort to let go of
their sense of self.
There's nothing distant about the further
shore, but to get there you first have to give up your sense of
self in the five aggregates by investigating to see them all as
stress, to see that none of them are "me" or "mine." Focus on this
one theme: not clinging. The Lord Buddha once spoke of the past as
below, the future as above, and the present as in the middle. He
also said that unskillful qualities are below, skillful qualities
above, and neutral ones in the middle. To each of them, he said,
"Don't cling to it." Even nibbana, the further shore,
shouldn't be clung to. See how far we're going to be released
through not-clinging! Any of you who can't comprehend that
even nibbana isn't to be clung to should consider the
standard teaching that tells us not to cling, that we have to let
go: "All things are unworthy of attachment." This is the ultimate
summary of all that the Buddha taught.
All phenomena, whether compounded or
uncompounded, fall under the phrase, "Sabbe dhamma anatta —
All things are not-self." They're all unworthy of attachment. This
summarizes everything, including our investigation to see the
truth of the world and of the Dhamma, to see things clearly with
our mindfulness and discernment, penetrating through the
compounded to the uncompounded, or through the worldly to the
transcendent, all of which has to be done by looking within, not
without.
And if we want to see the real essence of the
Dhamma, we have to look deeply, profoundly. Then it's simply a
matter of letting go all along the way. We see all the way in and
let go of everything. The theme of not clinging covers
everything from beginning to end. If our practice is to go
correctly, it's because we look with mindfulness and discernment
to penetrate everything, not getting stuck on any form, feeling,
perception, thought-formation, or consciousness at all.
The Buddha taught about how ignorance — not
knowing form, delusion with form — leads to craving, the mental
act that arises at the mind and agitates it, leading to the
kamma by which we try to get what we crave. When you
understand this, you can practice correctly, for you know that you
have to disband the craving. The reason we contemplate the body
and mind over and over again is so that we won't feel desire for
anything outside, won't get engrossed in anything outside. The
more you contemplate, the more things outside seem pitiful and not
worth getting engrossed in at all. The reason you were engrossed
and excited was because you didn't know. And so you raved about
people and things and made a lot of fuss, talking about worldly
matters: "This is good, that's bad, she's good, he's bad." The
mind got all scattered in worldly affairs — and so how could you
examine the diseases within your own mind?
The Buddha answered Mogharaja's question — "In
what way does one view the world so that the king of death does
not see one?" — by telling him to see the world as empty, as
devoid of self. We have to strip away conventions, such as
"person" and "being," and all designations such as elements,
aggregates, and sense media. Once we know how to strip away
conventions and designations, there's nothing we need to hold
onto. What's left is the Deathless. The transcendent. Nibbana.
There are many names for it, but they're all one and the same
thing. When you strip away all worldly things, what's left is the
transcendent. When you strip away all compounded things, what's
left is the uncompounded, the true Dhamma.
So consider for yourself whether or not this is
worth attaining. If we stay in the world, we have to go through
repeated births and deaths in the three levels of existence:
sensuality, form, and formlessness. But on that further shore
there's no birth, no death. It's beyond the reach of the King of
Mortality. But because we don't know the further shore, we want to
keep on being reborn on this shore with its innumerable repeated
sufferings.
Once you comprehend suffering and stress,
though, there's nowhere else you want to turn: You head straight
for the further shore, the shore with no birth or death, the shore
where defilement and craving disband once and for all. Your
practice thus goes straight to the cessation of suffering and
defilement, to clear penetration of the Common Characteristics of
inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness in the aggregates. People
with mindfulness and discernment focus their contemplation in the
direction of absolute disbanding, for if their disbanding isn't
absolute, they'll have to be reborn again in suffering and stress.
So keep disbanding attachments, keep letting go, contemplating
inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness and relinquishing them. This
is the right path for sure.
Isn't this something worth knowing and training
for? It's not all that mysterious or far away, you know. It's
something that anyone — man or woman — can realize, something we
can all train in. We can develop virtue, can make the mind quiet,
and can use our mindfulness and discernment to contemplate. So
isn't this really worth practicing?
Stupid people like to say no. They say they
can't do it: They can't observe the precepts, can't make the mind
quiet. The best thing in life — the practice for release from
suffering and stress — and yet they reject it. Instead, they rush
around in a turmoil, competing with one another, bragging to one
another, and then end up rotting in their coffins. Exactly what is
appealing about all that?
We've gone astray for far too long already, our
lives almost gone after how many decades. Now we've come here to
turn ourselves around. No matter how old you are, the air you
breathe isn't just for your convenience and comfort, but for you
to learn about suffering and stress. That way you'll be able to
disband it. Don't imagine that your family and relatives are
essential to you. You are alone. You came alone and you'll go
alone. This holds true for each of us. Only when there's no
self to go: That's when you penetrate to the Dhamma. If there
is still a self to be born, then you're stuck in the cycle of
suffering and stress. So isn't it worthwhile to strive for
release? After all, it's something each of us has to find for him
or herself.
Those who trust in the Lord Buddha will all
have to follow this way. To trust the defilements is to throw
yourself down in the mire — and there who will you be able to brag
to, aside from your own sufferings? The knowledge that leads to
dispassion and disenchantment is what counts as true knowledge.
But if your knowledge leads you to hold on, then you're a disciple
of Mara. You still find things very delicious. You may say that
you're disenchanted, but the mind isn't disenchanted at all. It
still wants to take this, to get that, to stay right here.
Whoever can keep reading the truth within her
own mind, deeper and deeper, will be able to go all the way
through, wiping out stupidity and delusion each step along the
way. Where you used to be deluded, you've now begun to come to
your senses. Where you used to brag, you now realize how very
stupid you were — and that you'll have to keep on correcting your
stupidity.
Reading yourself, contemplating yourself, you
see new angles, you gain more precise self-knowledge each step
along the way. It's not a question of being expert about things
outside. You see how what's inside is really inconstant, really
stressful, really not-self. The way you used to fall for things
and latch onto them was because of your blindness, because you
didn't understand. So who can you blame? Your own stupidity,
that's who — because it wanted to brag about how much it knew.
Now you know that you've still got a lot of
stupidity left and that you'll have to get rid of it before you
die. Every day that you still have breath left to breathe, you'll
use it to wipe out your stupidity rather than to get this or be
that or to dance around. The ones who dance around are possessed
by spirits: the demons of defilement making them crazy and
deluded, wanting to get this and be that and dance all over the
place. But if you focus your attention in on yourself, then your
pride, your conceit, your desires to stand out will shrink out of
sight, never daring to show their faces for the rest of your life,
for you realize that the more you brag, the more you suffer.
So the essence of the practice is to turn
around and focus inside. The more you can wash away these things,
the more empty and free the mind will be: This is its own reward.
If you connive with your conceits, you'll destroy whatever virtue
you have, but if you can drive these demons away, virtuous
influences will come and stay with you. If the demons are still
there, the virtuous ones won't be able to stay. They can't get
along at all. If you let yourself get entangled in turmoil, it's
an affair of the demons. If you're empty and free, it's an affair
of cleanliness and peace — an affair of the virtuous influences.
So go and check to see how many of these demons
you've been able to sweep away. Are they thinning out? When they
make an appearance, point them right in the face and call them
what they are: demons and devils, come to eat your heart and drink
your blood. You've let them eat you before, but now you've finally
come to your senses and can drive them away. That will put an end
to your troubles, or at least help your sufferings grow lighter.
Your sense of self will start to shrivel away. Before, it was big,
fat, and powerful, but now its power is gone. Your pride and
conceit have grown thin and weak. It's as when a person has been
bitten by a rabid dog: They give him a serum made from rabid dogs
to drive out the disease. The same holds here: If we can recognize
these things, they disband. The mind is then empty and at peace,
for this one thing — the theme of not clinging — can disband
suffering and stress with every moment.
Simply Stop Right Here
November 28, 1970
Today we have gathered for our regular meeting.
The way we've been contemplating to the point
of giving rise to knowledge through genuine mindfulness and
discernment makes us realize how this is a process of disbanding
suffering and defilement. Whenever mindfulness lapses and we latch
on to anything, our practice of reading ourselves step by step
will enable us to realize the situation easily. This helps us keep
the mind under control and does a world of good. Still, it's not
enough, for the affairs of suffering and defilement are paramount
issues buried deep in the character. We thus we have to
contemplate and examine things within ourselves.
Looking outside is something we're already used
to: Whenever we know things outside, the mind is in a turmoil
instead of being empty and at peace. This is something we can all
be aware of. And this is why we have to maintain the mind in its
state of neutrality or mindful centeredness. We then notice from
our experience in the practice: What state have we been able to
maintain the mind in? Is our mindfulness continuous throughout all
our activities? These are things we all have to notice, using our
own powers of observation. When the mind deviates from its
foundation because of mental fabrications, thinking up all sorts
of turmoil for itself as it's used to doing, what can we do to
make it settle down and grow still? If it doesn't grow still, it
gets involved in nothing but stress: wandering around thinking,
imagining, taking on all sorts of things. That's stress.
You have to keep reading these things at all times, seeing clearly
the ways in which they're inconstant, changing, and stressful.
Now, if you understand the nature of arising
and passing away by turning inward to watch the arising and
passing away within yourself, you realize that it's neither good
nor bad nor anything of the sort. It's simply a natural process of
arising, persisting, and passing away. Try to see deeply into
this, and you'll be sweeping the mind clean, just as when you
constantly sweep out your house: If anything then comes to make it
dirty, you'll be able to detect it. So with every moment, we have
to sweep out whatever arises, persists, and then passes away. Let
it all pass away, without latching on or clinging to anything. Try
to make the mind aware of this state of unattachment within
itself: If it doesn't latch on to anything, doesn't cling to
anything, there's no commotion in it. It's empty and at peace.
This state of awareness is so worth
knowing, for it doesn't require that you know a lot of things at
all. You simply have to contemplate so as to see the inconstancy
of form, feelings, perceptions, thought-formations, and
consciousness. Or you can contemplate whatever preoccupies the
mind as it continually changes — arising and passing away — with
every moment. This is something you have to contemplate until you
really know it. Otherwise, you'll fall for your
preoccupations in line with the way you label sensory contacts. If
you don't fall for sensory contacts arising in the present, you
fall for your memories or thought-formations. This is why you have
to train the mind to stay firmly centered in neutrality without
latching onto anything at all. If you can maintain this one
stance continuously, you'll be sweeping everything out of the
mind, disbanding its suffering and stress in the immediate
present with each and every moment.
Everything arises and then passes away, arises
and then passes away — everything. Don't grasp hold of anything,
thinking that it's good or bad or taking it as your self. Stop all
your discursive thinking and mental fabrications. When you can
maintain this state of awareness, the mind will calm down on its
own, will naturally become empty and free. If any thoughts arise,
see that they just come and go, so don't latch onto them. When you
can read the aspects of the mind that arise and pass away, there's
not much else to do: Just keep watching and letting go within
yourself, and there will be no remaining long, drawn-out trains of
thought about past or future. They all stop right at the arising
and passing away.
When you really see the present with its
arisings and passings away, there are no great issues. Whatever
you think about will all pass away, but if you can't notice its
passing away, you'll grasp at whatever comes up, and then
everything will become a turmoil of ceaseless imaginings. So you
have to cut off these connected thought-formations that keep
flowing like a stream of water. Establish your mindfulness and,
once it's established, simply fix your whole attention on the
mind. Then you'll be able to still the flow of thought-formations
that had you distracted. You can do this at any time, and the mind
will always grow still to become empty, unentangled, unattached.
Then keep watch over the normalcy of the mind again and again
whenever it gets engrossed and starts spinning out long, drawn out
thought-formations. As soon as you're aware, let them stop. As
soon as you're aware, let them stop, and things will disband right
there. Whatever the issue, disband it immediately. Practice like
this until you become skilled at it, and the mind won't get
involved in distractions.
It's like driving a car: When you want to stop,
just slam on the brakes and you stop immediately. The same
principle works with the mind. You'll notice that, no matter when,
as soon as there's mindfulness, it stops and grows still. In other
words, when mindfulness is firmly centered, then no matter what
happens, as soon as you're mindfully aware of it, the mind stops,
disengages, and is free. This is a really simple method: stopping
as soon as you're mindful. Any other approach is just too slow to
cope. This method of examining yourself, knowing yourself, is very
worth knowing because anyone can apply it at any time. Even right
here while I'm speaking and you're listening, just focus your
attention right at the mind as it's normal in the present. This is
an excellent way of knowing your own mind.
Before we knew anything about all this, we let
the mind go chasing after any thoughts that occurred to it, taking
up a new thought as soon as it was finished with an old one,
spinning its webs to trap us in all kinds of complications.
Whatever meditation techniques we tried weren't really able to
stop our distraction. So don't underestimate this method as being
too simple. Train yourself to be on top of any objects that make
contact or any opinions that intrude on your awareness. When pride
and opinions come pouring out, cry, "Stop! Let me finish first!"
This method of calling a halt can really still the defilements
immediately, even when they're like two people interrupting each
other to speak, the conceit or sense of "self" on one side
immediately raising objections before the other side has even
finished. Or you might say it's like suddenly running into a
dangerous beast — a tiger or poisonous snake — with no means of
escape. All you can do is simply stop, totally still, and spread
thoughts of loving-kindness.
The same holds true here: You simply stop, and
that cuts the strength of the defilement or any sense of self
that's made a sudden appearance. We have to stop the defilements
in their tracks, for if we don't, they'll grow strong and keep
intensifying. So we have to stop them right from the first. Resist
them right from the first. This way your mindfulness will get used
to dealing with them. As soon as you say, "Stop!", things stop
immediately. The defilements will grow obedient and won't dare
push you around in any way.
If you're going to sit for an hour, make sure
that you're mindful right at the mind the whole time. Don't just
aim at the pleasure of tranquillity. Sit and watch the sensations
within the mind to see how it's centered. Don't concern yourself
with any cravings or feelings that arise. Even if pain arises, in
whatever way, don't pay it any attention. Keep being mindful of
the centered normalcy of the mind at all times. The mind won't
stray off to any pleasures or pains, but will let go of them all,
seeing the pains as an affair of the aggregates, because the
aggregates are inconstant. Feelings are inconstant. The body's
inconstant. That's the way they have to be.
When a pleasant feeling arises, the craving
that wants pleasure is contented with it and wants to stay with
that pleasure as long as possible. But when there's pain, it acts
in an entirely opposite way, because pain hurts. When pains arise
as we sit for long periods of time, the mind gets agitated because
craving pushes for a change. It wants us to adjust things in this
way or that. We have to train ourselves to disband the craving
instead. If pains grow strong in the body, we have to practice
staying at equanimity by realizing that they're the pains of the
aggregates — and not our pain — until the mind is no longer
agitated and can return to a normal state of equanimity.
Even if the equanimity isn't complete, don't
worry about it. Simply make sure that the mind doesn't struggle to
change the situation. Keep disbanding the struggling, the craving.
If the pain is so unbearable that you have to change positions,
don't make the change while the mind is really worked up. Keep
sitting still, watch how far the pain goes, and change positions
only when the right moment comes. Then as you stretch out your
leg, make sure that the mind is still centered, still at
equanimity. Stay that way for about five minutes, and the fierce
pain will go away. But watch out: When a pleasant feeling replaces
the pain, the mind will like it. So you have to use mindfulness to
keep the mind neutral and at equanimity.
Practice this in all your activities, because
the mind tends to get engrossed with pleasant feelings. It can
even get engrossed with neutral feelings. So you have to keep your
mindfulness firmly established, knowing feelings for what they
really are: inconstant and stressful, with no real pleasure to
them at all. Contemplate pleasant feelings to see them as nothing
but stress. You have to keep doing this at all times. Don't get
infatuated with pleasant feelings, for if you do, you fall into
more suffering and stress, because craving wants nothing but
pleasure even though the aggregates have no pleasure to offer. The
physical and mental aggregates are all stressful. If the mind can
rise above pleasure, above pain, above feeling, right there is
where it gains release. Please understand this: It's release
from feeling. If the mind hasn't yet gained release from feeling —
if it still wants pleasure, is still attached to pleasure and pain
— then try to notice the state of mind at the moments when it's
neutral toward feeling. That will enable it to gain release from
suffering and stress.
So we have to practice a lot with feelings of
physical pain and, at the same time, to make an effort to
comprehend pleasant feelings as well, for the pleasant feelings
connected with the subtle defilements of passion and craving are
things we don't really understand. We think that they're true
pleasure, which makes us want them. This wanting is craving — and
the Buddha tells us to abandon craving and passion for name and
form. "Passion" here means wanting to get nothing but pleasure and
then becoming entangled in liking or disliking what results. It
means that we're entangled in the delicious flavors of feelings,
regardless of whether they're physical feelings or mental ones.
We should come to realize that when a feeling
of physical pain gets very strong, we can handle it by
using mindfulness to keep the mind from struggling. Then, even if
there's a great deal of physical pain, we can let go. Even though
the body may be agitated, the mind isn't agitated along with it.
But to do this, you first have to practice separating feelings
from the mind while you're still strong and healthy.
As for the feelings that come with desire, if
we accumulate them they lead to even greater suffering. So don't
think of them as being easeful or comfortable, because that's
delusion. You have to keep track of how feelings — no matter what
the sort — are all inconstant, stressful and not-self. If you can
let go of feeling, you'll become disenchanted with form, feelings,
perceptions, thought-formations, and consciousness that carry
feelings of pleasure. But if you don't contemplate these things,
you'll stay infatuated with them.
So try noticing when the mind is in this
infatuated state. Is it empty and at peace? If it's attached,
you'll see that it's dirty and defiled because it's deluded into
clinging. As soon as there's pain, it grows all agitated. If the
mind is addicted to the three kinds of feeling — pleasant,
painful, and neither pleasant nor painful — it has to endure
suffering and stress. We have to see the inconstancy,
stressfulness, and not-selfness of the body and mind so that we
won't cling. We won't cling whether we look outside or in. We'll
be empty — empty because of our lack of attachment. We'll know
that the mind isn't suffering from stress. The more deeply we look
inside, the more we'll see that the mind is truly empty of
attachment.
This is how we gain release from suffering and
stress. It's the simplest way to gain release, but if we don't
really understand, it's the hardest. Thus you absolutely have to
keep working at letting go. The moment the mind latches onto
anything, make it let go. And then notice to see that when you
tell the mind to let go, it does let go. When you tell it to stop,
it stops. When you tell it to be empty, it's really and truly
empty.
This method of watching the mind is extremely
useful, but we're rarely interested in contemplating to the point
of becoming adept and resourceful at disbanding our own
sufferings. We practice in a leisurely, casual way, and don't know
which points we should correct, where we should disband things,
what we should let go of. And so we keep circling around with
suffering and attachment.
We have to figure out how to find our
opportunity to disband suffering with every moment. We can't just
live, sleep, and eat at our ease. We need to find ways to examine
and contemplate all things, using our mindfulness and discernment
to see their emptiness of "self." Only then will we be able to
loosen our attachments. If we don't know with real mindfulness and
discernment, our practice won't be able to lead us out of
suffering and stress at all.
Every defilement — each one in the list of
sixteen — is hard to abandon. Still, they don't arise all sixteen
at once, but only one at a time. If you know the features of their
arising, you can let them go. The first step is to recognize their
faces clearly, because you have to realize that they're burning
hot every time they arise. If they have you sad or upset, it's
easy to know them. If they have you happy, they're harder to
detect. So you first have to learn to recognize the mind at
normalcy, keeping your words and deeds at normalcy, too.
"Normalcy" here means being free of liking and disliking. It's a
question of purity in virtue — just as when we practice restraint
of the senses. Normalcy is the basic foundation. If the mind isn't
at normalcy — if it likes this or dislikes that — that means your
restraint of the senses isn't pure. For instance, when you see a
sight with the eye or hear a sound with the ear, you don't get
upset as long as no real pains arise, but if you get distracted
and absentminded as the pains get more and more earnest, your
precepts will suffer, and you'll end up all agitated.
So don't underestimate even the smallest
things. Use your mindfulness and discernment to disband things, to
destroy them, and to keep working at your investigation. Then,
even if serious events happen, you'll be able to let go of them.
If your attachments are heavy, you'll be able to let go of them.
If they're many, you'll be able to thin them out.
The same holds true with intermediate
defilements: the five Hindrances. Any liking for sights, sounds,
smells, tastes, and tactile sensations is the Hindrance of sensual
desire. If you don't like what you see, hear, etc., that's the
Hindrance of ill will. These Hindrances of liking and disliking
defile the mind, making it agitated and scattered, unable to grow
calm. Try observing the mind when it's dominated by the five
Hindrances to see whether or not it's in a state of suffering. Do
you recognize these intermediate defilements when they enshroud
your mind?
The Hindrance of sensual desire is like a dye
that clouds clear water, making it murky — and when the mind is
murky, it's suffering. Ill will as a Hindrance is irritability and
dissatisfaction, and the Hindrance of sloth and torpor is a state
of drowsiness and lethargy — a condition of refusing to deal with
anything at all, burying yourself in sleep and lazy forgetfulness.
All the Hindrances, including the final pair — restlessness &
anxiety and uncertainty — cloak the mind in darkness. This is why
you need to be resilient in fighting them off at every moment and
in investigating them so that you can weaken and eliminate every
form of defilement — from the gross to the middling and on to the
subtle — from the mind.
The practice of the Dhamma is very delicate
work, requiring that you use all your mindfulness and discernment
in probing and comprehending the body and mind. When you look into
the body, try to see the truth of how it's inconstant, stressful,
and nothing more than physical elements. If you don't contemplate
in this way, your practice will simply grope around and won't be
able to release you from suffering and stress — for the sufferings
caused by the defilements concocting things in the mind are more
than many. The mind is full of all kinds of tricks. Sometimes you
may gain some insight through mindfulness and discernment —
becoming bright, empty, and at peace — only to find the
defilements slipping in to spoil things, cloaking the mind in
total darkness once more, so that you get distracted and can't
know anything clearly.
We each have to find special strategies in
reading ourselves so that we don't get lost in distractions.
Desire is a big troublemaker here, and so is distraction. Torpor
and lethargy — all the Hindrances — are enemies blocking
your way. The fact that you haven't seen anything all the way
through is because these characters are blocking your way and have
you surrounded. You have to find a way to destroy them using
apt attention, i.e., a skillful way of making use of the mind.
You have to dig down and explore, contemplating to see how these
things arise, how they pass away, and what exactly is inconstant,
stressful, and not-self. These are questions you have to keep
asking yourself so that the mind will really come to know. When
you really know inconstancy, you're sure to let go of defilement,
craving, and attachment, or at least be able to weaken and thin
them out. It's like having a broom in your hand. Whenever
attachment arises, you sweep it away until the mind can no longer
grow attached to anything, for there's nothing left for it to be
attached to. You've seen that everything is inconstant, so what's
there to latch onto?
When you're persistent in contemplating to see
your inconstancy, stress and not-selfness, the mind feels ease
because you've loosened your attachments. This is the marvel of
the Dhamma: an ease of body and mind completely free from
entanglement in the defilements. It's truly special. Before, the
ignorance obscuring the mind caused you wander about spellbound by
sights, sounds, and so forth, so that defilement, craving, and
attachment had you under their power. But now, mindfulness and
discernment break the spell by seeing that there's no self to
these things, nothing real to them at all. They simply arise and
pass away with every moment. There's not the least little bit of
"me" or "mine" to them at all. Once we really know with
mindfulness and discernment, we sweep everything clean, leaving
nothing but pure Dhamma with no sense of self at all. We see
nothing but inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness, with no
pleasure or pain.
The Lord Buddha taught, "Sabbe dhamma anatta
— All things are not-self." Both the compounded and the
uncompounded — which is nibbana, the transcendent — are
not-self. There's just Dhamma. This is very important.
There's no sense of self there, but what is there, is
Dhamma. This isn't the extinction taught by the wrong view of
annihilationism; it's the extinction of all attachment to "me" and
"mine." All that remains is Deathlessness — the undying Dhamma,
the undying property — free from birth, aging, illness, and death.
Everything still remains as it was, it hasn't been annihilated
anywhere; the only things annihilated are the defilements together
with all suffering and stress. It's called "suñño" — empty
— because it's empty of the label of self. This Deathlessness
is the true marvel the Buddha discovered and taught to awaken us.
This is why it's so worth looking in to
penetrate clear through the inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness
of the five aggregates, for what then remains is the natural
Dhamma free from birth, aging, illness, and death. It's called
Unbinding, Emptiness, the Unconditioned: These names all mean the
same thing. They're simply conventional designations that also
have to be let go so that you can dwell in the aspect of mind
devoid of any sense of self.
So the paths, fruitions, and nibbana are
not something to hope for in a future life by developing a vast
heap of perfections. Some people like to point out that the Lord
Buddha had to accumulate so many, many virtues — but what about
you? You don't consider how many lives have passed while you still
have yet to attain the goal, all because of your stupidity in
continually finding excuses for yourself.
The basic principles that the Lord Buddha
taught — such as the four foundations of mindfulness, the four
Noble Truths, the three characteristics of inconstancy, stress,
and not-selfness — are right here inside you, so probe on in to
contemplate them until you know them. Defilement, craving, and
attachment are right here inside you, too, so contemplate them
until you gain true insight. Then you'll be able to let them go,
no longer latching onto them as really being "me" or "mine." This
way you'll gain release from suffering and stress within yourself.
Don't keep excusing yourself by relying, for
instance, on the miraculous powers of some object or waiting to
build up the perfections. Don't think in those terms. Think
instead of what the defilements are like right here and now: Is it
better to disband them or to fall in with them? If you fall in
with them, is there suffering and stress? You have to find out the
truth within yourself so as to get rid of your stupidity and
delusion in thinking that this bodily frame of suffering is really
happiness.
We're all stuck in this delusion because we
don't open our eyes. This is why we have to keep discussing these
issues, giving advice and digging out the truth so that you'll
give rise to the mindfulness and discernment that will enable you
to know yourself. The fact that you've begun to see things, to
acknowledge the defilements and stress within yourself to at least
some extent, is very beneficial. It's better that we talk about
these things than about anything else, so that we'll gain
knowledge about suffering and its cause, about how to contemplate
body, feelings, mind, and mental qualities so as to disband our
suffering and stress. This way we can reduce our sufferings
because we'll be letting go of the defilements that scorch the
mind and get it agitated. Our mindfulness and discernment will
gradually be able to eliminate the defilements and cravings from
the heart.
This practice of ours, if we really do it and
really come to know, will really reduce our sufferings. This will
attract others to follow our example. We won't have to advertise,
for they'll have to notice. We don't have to brag about what level
we've attained or what degrees we've earned. We don't have any of
that here, for all we talk about is suffering, stress, the
defilements, not-self. If we know with real mindfulness and
discernment, we can scrape away our defilements, cravings, and
attachments, and the good results will be right there inside us.
So now that we have this opportunity, we should
make a concerted effort for the sake of our own progress. Don't
let your life pass under the influence of defilement, craving, and
attachment. Make an effort to correct yourself in this area every
day, every moment, and you're sure to progress in your practice of
destroying your defilements and disbanding your suffering and
stress at all times. This business of sacrificing defilements or
sacrificing your sense of self is very important because it gives
rewards — peace, normalcy, freedom with every moment — right
here in the heart. The practice is thus something really
worthy of interest. If you're not interested in the practice of
searching out and destroying the diseases of defilement, of your
own suffering and stress, you'll have to stay stuck there in
repeated suffering along with every other ignorant person in the
world.
When Mara — temptation — tried to stop the
Buddha's efforts by telling him that within seven days he would
become a Universal Emperor, the Buddha answered, "I know already!
Don't try to deceive me or tempt me." Because the Buddha had the
ability to know such things instantly for himself, Mara was
continually defeated. But what about you? Are you a disciple of
the Lord Buddha or of Mara? Whenever temptation appears — there
you go, following him hook, line, and sinker, with no sense of
weariness or dispassion at all. If we're really disciples of the
Buddha we have to go against the flow of defilement,
craving, and attachment, establishing ourselves in good qualities
— beginning with morality, which forms the ideal principle for
protecting ourselves. Then we can gain release from suffering by
working from the level of the precepts on to mental calm and then
using discernment to see inconstancy, stress, and not-self. This
is a high level of discernment, you know: the discernment that
penetrates not-self.
At any rate, the important point is that you
not believe your defilements. Even though you may still have the
effluents of ignorance or craving in your mind, always keep making
use of mindfulness and discernment as your means of knowing,
letting go, scrubbing things clean. When these effluents come to
tempt you, simply stop. Let go. Refuse to go along with them. If
you believe them when they tell you to latch onto things, you'll
simply continue being burned and agitated by desire. But if you
don't go along with them, the desires in the mind will gradually
loosen, subside, and eventually cease.
So in training the mind, you have to take
desire as your battlefield in the same way you would in treating
an addiction: If you aren't intent on defeating it, there's no way
you can escape being a slave to it repeatedly. We have to use
mindfulness as a protective shield and discernment as our weapon
to cut through and destroy our desires. That way our practice will
result in steady progress, enabling us to keep abreast of
defilement, craving and attachment with more and more precision.
If, in your practice, you can read and decipher
the mind, you'll find your escape route, following the footsteps
of the Noble Ones. But as long as you don't see it, you'll think
that there are no paths, no fruitions, no nibbana. Only
when you can disband the defilements will you know. You really
have to be able to disband them in order to know for yourself that
the paths, fruitions, and nibbana really exist and really
can disband suffering and stress. This is something you have to
know for yourself. It's timeless: No matter what the time or
season, whenever you have the mindfulness to stop and let go,
there's no suffering. As you learn to do this over and over, more
and more frequently, the defilements grow weaker and weaker. This
is why it's ehipassiko — something you can invite other
people to come and see, for all people who do this can disband
defilement and suffering. If they contemplate until they see
inconstancy, stress, and not-self, they'll no longer have any
attachments, and their minds will become Dhamma, will become free.
There's no need to get all excited about anyone
outside — spirit entities or whatever — because success in the
practice lies right here in the heart. Look into it until you
penetrate clearly all the way through yourself, sweep away all
your attachments, and then you'll have this "ehipassiko" within
you. "Come and see! Come and see!" But if there's still any
defilement, then it's, "Come and see! Come and see the defilements
burning me!" It can work both ways, you know. If you disband the
defilements, let go, and come to a stop, then it's, "Come and see
how the defilements are gone, how the mind is empty right here and
now!" This is something anyone can know, something you can know
thoroughly for yourself with no great difficulty.
Turning to look into the mind isn't all that
difficult, you know. You don't have to travel far to do it. You
can watch it at any time, in any posture. True things and false
are all there within you, but if you don't study yourself within,
you won't know them — for you spend all your time studying
outside, the things of the world that worldly people study. If you
want to study the Dhamma, you have to turn around and come inside,
watching right at the body, at feelings, at the mind, at mental
qualities, until you know the truth that the body isn't you or
yours; it's inconstant, stressful, and not-self. Feelings are
inconstant, stressful, and not-self. The mind is inconstant,
stressful, and not-self as well. Then look at the Dhamma of mental
qualities: They're inconstant and stressful. They arise, persist,
and pass away. If you don't latch on and can become free from any
sense of self right here at mental qualities, the mind becomes
free.
If you understand correctly, the mind is really
easy to deal with. If you don't, it's the exact opposite. Like
pushing a light switch: If you hit the "on" button, the light is
immediately bright. With the "off" button, it's immediately dark.
The same holds true with the mind. If your knowledge is wrong,
it's dark. If your knowledge is right, it's bright. Then look to
see if there's anything worth clinging to. If you really look,
you'll see that there isn't, for all the things you can cling to
are suffering and stress — affairs of ignorance, speculation,
day-dreaming, taking issue with things, self, people, useless
chatter, endless news reports. But if you focus on probing into
the mind, there's nothing — nothing but letting go to be empty and
free. This is where the Dhamma arises easily — as easily as
defilements arise on the other side, simply that you're now
looking from a different angle and have the choice: Do you want
the dark angle or the bright? Should you stop or keep running?
Should you be empty or entangled? It's yours to decide within you.
The Dhamma is something marvelous and amazing.
If you start out with right understanding, you can understand all
the way through. If you get snagged at any point, you can examine
and contemplate things to see where you're still attached. Keep
cross-examining back and forth, and then all will become clear.
We're already good at following the knowledge
of defilement and craving, so now we have to follow the knowledge
of mindfulness and discernment instead. Keep cross-examining the
defilements. Don't submit to them easily. You have to resist their
power and refuse to fall in with them. That's when you'll really
come to know. When you really know, everything stops. Craving
stops, your wanderings stop, likes, hatreds — this knowledge
sweeps everything away. But if you don't know, you keep gathering
things up until you're thoroughly embroiled: arranging this,
adjusting that, wanting this and that, letting your sense of self
rear its ugly head.
Think of it like this: You're a huge playhouse
showing a true-to-life drama whose hero, heroine, and villains —
which are conventional suppositions — are entirely within you. If
you strip away all conventional suppositions and designations,
what you have left is nothing but Dhamma: freedom, emptiness. And
simply being free and empty of any sense of self is enough to
bring the whole show to an end.